Scenario: Walking in the cool night breeze, wearing nothing but a sweater, was Rin. Rin Okumura. As careless as he is, the chilling air wasn't of mind. He usually sits on the roof right above his room but tonight, Rin felt compelled to take a walk despite it being 3:00 am.  Alone, a haunting feeling that's been, eating at Rin his whole life. Rin mumbles to himself, still roaming the dark of night. This is the time Rin is alone with his thoughts. Though it was always hard for Rin to sleep, insomnia got its best when his dad died. He didn't even try to sleep anymore, there was too much to think about. Each minute yet another thing adds to his already heavy heart. He feels extremely exhausted but unable to close his eyes. Leaving a feeling of  lifelessness. He reminisces through his thoughts. Every step he takes is anxiety-filled. I won't have to feel pain anymore. He smacks his head "Why was I born?!" All his life, he'd been struggling with giving an answer to that question. The moment his life went downhill was when his father was killed not only that he was the reason for his father's death. I am Rin Okumura ... The son of Satan He has kept that secret with him ever since. He knew, that he was different, but he never once thought it was...that. When he was exposed to this secret, he'd come to a realization. He always felt his demon side. He never knew what friends were, he never had friends. Being the son of Satan wasn't a big help in fitting in. When he got to cram school and met Bon, Shiemi, Konekomuru and Shima. He finally knew what it felt like to have friends, to not be alone. Rin kept this secret from everyone. He was too afraid of the way others would treat him if they found out. He knew that no one would ever see him the same. So, when they did, find out it didn't surprise him when he was looked at with those eyes, the eyes of hate and despise. His brother Yukio ignored him even though he knew. He blamed him for the death of his father. Though he wasn't surprised it still hurt. It still cut deep. He felt every one of those stares. The words cut even deeper. The people he called friends. Now hated him. They didn't care. They wanted him dead. "You know those blue flames kill people" "He deserves to be executed" "How long is the Vatican going to let him live?" "Why don't you just die" Those words hurt. Rin thought. Was I not your friend. Do you not cherish the memories we made. "It hurts," he says "it hurts" the pain consumes him. He folds his hands into fists and digs his nails into his palm. He tries to drown out the emotional pain with physical pain. Of course, it doesn't work but, in some ways, it calms him. Rin let a tear fall down his cheek. I'm the same Rin. I'm not just a fucking demon I'm human too. he thought, trying to convince himself. He continues to dig his nails into his palm till they rip through the skin and it starts to bleed. Even he struggled with the question of whether he was a monster or a human. It's not my fault my father is Satan. I didn't harm anyone. I wouldn't hurt anyone. "Damn it! I'm human, I'm human. I'm not evil" He couldn't hold any more tears. They just came flowing down his cheeks. He always wished if there was someone who understood what he was going through or maybe someone who didn't care he was half-demon. Someone, anyone. "That's impossible" Rin whispers "God, I'm so tired!" He's always been tired. Tired of the sleepless nights. The constant pain and loneliness. The heaviness of his heart. If life is this hard, he doesn't want any part of it. Rin was so deep in his thoughts. He didn't notice how far he was walking. He looks around and notices he's on a bridge. Pretty far from the school. He thought of going back but thought what is there waiting for me? What life do I have? Why am I even here? Why do I even exist? Rin steps a foot onto the railing of the bridge. "No one will care" He starts to breathe heavily as he steps forward with his other foot. "Noones going to stop me," he says Rin stands at the railing, arms stretched out. "I don't want to live" " You sure?" and he notices there was a girl standing on the railing right next to him. I guess I didn't notice. "You sure?" She repeats herself "You sure you want to jump cause I'll ... do it if you do it" Rin looks at this girl. "What do you mean you'll do it too?" he looks at her with a crazy grin. "I mean I'll do it. Got nothing to live for anyway, dying with a stranger doesn't seem too bad at-least I'm not alone" she says this with the most serious look in her eyes Her eyes were a piercing black. Maybe it's because it's still dark out, but her eyes show so much emotion alone. Rin reaches for her hand and holds onto it tight. Her hands are freezing cold, they feel like ice crystals, so delicate to the point he feels like if he squeezes any tighter, they'll shatter. "Geez how long have you been outside, your hands are freezing" She responds with "I don't know" And continues to gaze down at the body of water that awaits them below. Rin Looks down once more and takes a deep breath. Then turns his head looking towards her and says "What's your name?" "Huh?" "Your name, what is it? I want to know the name of the person I'm going to die with" "Oh, umm Kimiko Abe " "Right Kimiko " "Yours?" She says while still looking down. She looks so eager but afraid, I don't know how to explain her face. She seems in pain. I wonder do I look like that? Is the sadness I carry that noticeable? What good is thinking about this? it only proves that no one cares about me even more. "Umm are you going to answer?" "Yeah, my names Rin, umm Rin Okumura" Kimiko nods her head and puts her focus back to looking below. They stood silent. Rin still gripping her hand. Debating whether he wants to go through with it with Kimiko or step down and continue to suffer. He had already decided he was too tired to keep fighting. He had given up till Kimiko came. Rin thinks maybe Kimiko is some type of hope or sign telling him to continue. This could end up being me leading myself to believe in false hope. Kimiko being here could just be a coincidence. Rin takes another deep breath trying to make his final decision. He lifts one foot ... Kimiko closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. Dad, she thinks will I be able to see you when I die. She feels her arm drag behind her... Opens her eyes and sees that Rin has stepped down the railing. ***    The sun began to rise. Rin was beginning to see the girl's eyes, her face, her black long hair. As the sun rays hit her golden deep dark skin. She's beautiful. Her eyes are just as I saw them black, deep, so full of emotion but empty. The eyes you can just get lost in trying to figure out what they're saying like a poem with a hidden message or a painting with a hidden meaning. Rin did get lost in them as she looked down at him in almost relief is it or disappointment. Did she want to jump? Was she ready? "Come on, we're not jumping today," Rin says still gripping onto her hand afraid if he lets go, she'll jump herself. Why am I holding onto her? if she wants to jump, why stop her? Rin knew that she wanted to be stopped because that's all Rin wanted, someone who cared enough to not want him to die. Even if it was a complete stranger.    There was silence.   Silence, normally Rin didn't like silence. But this silence was ok for him. Rin kept looking at her. Studying her face like it was a piece of art. Her deep tone glowing so vibrantly. She turns around and takes one more glance down at the water and then steps down from the railing.     Her hands are shaking, guess because she was out here for a while. He thinks. Then assists her. Holding her arms tightly as she was coming down.     Rin took his only source of warmth he had, his sweater, and put it on over her cloak. Which doesn't really make sense. "I'm dumb, just take off your jacket and put the sweater under"   "Thanks, Rin, but won't you get cold? I'm okay with the jacket" she says proceeding to push the sweater back in his arms.   "No take it, I've still got a little warmth. Your way colder than I am" he pushes it back into her arms.     It was still a little cold but since the sun rose, it was gradually getting warmer.     "Umm, thank you, "Kimiko says this avoiding eye contact.     "Why didn't you jump?" Her voice was quivering but Rin was able to figure out what she said. Why didn't I jump? Was it, Kimiko? Rin replied with an" I don't know" "Why didn't you, jump?"       She finally looks up and replies "Well I... cause you didn't" And quickly looks away       Rin wasn't satisfied with that answer. But he didn't really give much of an answer himself. He wanted to know this girl. Even though they had just met, he knew that she was there for a reason.      It was morning now. The sun had risen. He stood there with Kimiko and watched it rise. With no words. He simply didn't know what to say. He was so scared of what she would think of him but she seems to not mind the silence or his presence.     Rin started to walk. She followed behind. They walked down the streets. They walked further and further away from the bridge. Kimiko lingering behind him. They did not say a word to each other, almost like they both understood each other's silence. She understood his thoughts and feelings without him having to say anything. "you're lonely aren't you " He hears almost a whisper coming from her. He didn't answer. He only stopped walking. I am lonely ... He didn't finish the thought.   I wish I could say it out loud, can't even say it in my head but if I do does it make it real, will the pain still be there. Kimiko didn't say another word she knew the answer to that question because she felt the same way. She only wanted it to be someone else's words, coming out of someone else's mouth so she didn't feel as lonely. Rin turns around and looks at her. All of a sudden, his phone starts ringing in his pocket. He reaches into his pocket; it was his alarm for class. He checked the time and it was 8:30 am. He completely forgot he had cram school. " Damn it! I got to go; I have class" he smacks his head with his hand. Rin was about to run but he felt a tug at his shirt. He turned around. "Your sweater," she says "Huh?" he turns around confused "you're going to forget your sweater" "Oh yeah, keep it. I'll meet you back at the bridge, umm, same time " and he runs off, hoping he will meet her again. He turns around, thinking this will probably be the last time he sees her, but he's caught by surprise. She's smiling? Kimiko was waving and smiling as Rin ran off. We'll meet again. She thought. I'll meet him again. *** The moment Rin gets home class had already started 30 minutes ago. He got ready quickly No one will care if I'm late, didn't even get a call from Yuki. Rin thought. Why am I surprised, I should've known already. When Rin enters his class. Yuki didn't say anything to him, didn't even yell at him, and Rin wanted Yuki to show reaction even if it was him being scolded at least he would know he cared but he didn't care, he ignored Rin. Rin was only met with stares from his classmates his "friends" the kind of stares that would pierce his heart like knives stabbing over and over never-ending pain. Why didn't I end it, the pain, the emptiness, the loneliness? I had a chance last night. Rin thought about the question Kamiko asked him "Why didn't you jump?" Was she my answer, The sign that I am supposed to live, my hope. I don't know but I hope we meet again. "Sometimes False hope is the hope we need to keep going"